setengah dina nang ngomah. ngobrol karo kanca kos, ngetik sinambi ngrungoake gendhing2 jawa. senen-selasa wingi aku kaya diteror wektu, sms lan telpon seka ngendi2. rasane kepingin mbanting telpon. apa maneh wingi pemotretan cover, mboseni.

nglangut ngrasaake kos-kosan sing panas. isa ngrampungke sak tulisan ('hikayat orang-orang narsis') lan ngedit lan ngekei pengantar sak tulisan ('kalung neon dan my little boy').

esuk-esuk nulis, ing komputer kanti iringan cd isobel. gorden kang luwih asring ketutup nyirep cahya kang sakjane ora sepiraa. esuk iki hawane kepenak. kanggo ngalamun, nulis, thengak-thenguk sinambi nyruput teh cangkir.


dina iki, aku pingine ora nang kantor sik, nanging ngulandara tekan kemang golek buku. tekan aksara aku langsung nuju rak ing waliking lorong mlebu. ing kono aku njupuk buku kang dijupuk seka blog, salam pax the bagdad blog. terus milang-miling nonton buku sing diseleh meja, aku njupuk elizabeth costello kang ditulis jm coetzee. dadi, nalika numpak kopaja 77 aku maca bukune coetzee. ukara-ukarane prasaja tanpa pralampita kang ngayawara.


mlaku-mlaku ndhisik nang blok m, mangan bakso, banjur mangan bakso ing ngarep pasar. mlebu malku-mlaku maneh terus ngantri nang bus way.

layar monitor wis dikebaki templekan kertas post it loro.


"aku udah cemplungin siaran pers ttg stand-nya sampoerna di prj itu di xxxxxxxxx@yahoo.com"

"kata abel: besok pagi ya kita ngerjain highlight."


kalawarti panjebar semangat anyar wis teka, naskah seka warner bross firebelle lan the corrs teka kanti foto kang peni. kerja lagi males. apa iki pengaruh seka lagu-lagune isobel kang mau tak puter? embuh! apa pisang sing tak pangan mau nggawa hawa beda? ra ngerti.

malem minggu bareng john lan paul

ing dina
nalika swara beatles sesideman ngajak demenan
nanging aku lagi ora karem
aku arep nonton langit
lungguhan ing balkon sinambi takon-pinakon
karo sapa?

"you can hear me!" john lenon ngeyel (1)
"you see nothing" kandhane paul mcartney (2)

nanging butuhku mung lungguhan
sinambi nyekel sakcangkir kopi

"we're all living in yellow submarine,
we're all living in yellow submarine" (3)
john karo paul nyanyi bareng

piye yen sesuk wae?
aku bakal lungguh ing kene maneh
ngenteni udan
nyulam crita
dijilid dadi pustaka
kang isine mung kapang

nanging saiki mangsa ketiga
critane kudu beda
piye carane ben dina katon endah?

"when i'm home everything seems to be right" (4)
nanging adoh yen kudu mulih
"seems so hard to find" (5)
pancen
"listen, do you want to know a secret?" (6)
apa kuwi
"hey, you've got to hide your love away" (7)
apa hubungane? ra sah ngayawara!
"come on, come on" (8)
apa sih?
"everything was right" (9)
kuwi lak nalika semana,
jaman dina isine mung padhang njingglang
"i said something wrong" (10)
terus?
"love is such an easy game to play" (10)
jarene sapa? aku ra percaya

tak critani wae
sore kuwi aku lungguh bareng
nyawang lintang sinambi cekelan tangan
lan sesumbar yen tresna kuwi
digawe ing ratri
lan katone dheweke setuju

"well, she was just seventeenth.
you know what i mean" (11)

pancen, lan kuwi crita lawas
luwih seka 10 tahun kepungkur
pantes disuwek, dibuang
nanging aku ora ana crita liya

"i'm so tired" (12)

ya wis, sugeng ndalu
aku isih kepingin lungguh ing kene
sapa ngerti ana crita kanggo sesuk wengi

kutipan dijupuk seka lagu-lagune beatles
(1) and your bird can sing
(2) for no one
(3) yellow submarine
(4) hard day night
(5) things we said to day
(6) do you want to know a secret
(7) you've got to hide your love away
(8) please,please me
(9) she said-she said
(10) yesterday
(11) i saw her standing there
(12) i'm so tired